Lack of control

Ever feel that your entire life is running away from you?  I went to New York but ended staying longer than planned because I was interviewing people. Then I got sick while I was there and came back to PAP with flu, and it's taken a week to get over that. It feels like life has passed me by for the last two weeks, and I am not in control of what I do. There are so many things that need to be done, important meetings to attend, donors to see, contacts to make, and yet I can't do what I know I need to because other priorities or demands get in the way. Sometimes I feel that things are out of my control, and if you know me, you know that is not a comfortable situation for me!! I am someone who likes to be able to go with the flow, or to be spontaneous. Instead my life is mapped out weeks ahead, and then things happen to get in the way that I cannot control. So I have to accept my limitations. I can only do what I can do. I am not multi-handed, and cannot clone myself so I am in a hundred places at once! I am not God, so I am not omniscient or omnipresent. I am just me. So instead I focus on what's important: why I'm here, and what I can do to change the little part of the world I live in, and pray I don't screw it up!